EYCK, Jan van The Madonna of Lucca c. 1436 Oil on wood, 65,5 x 49,5 cm Städelsches Kunstinstitut, Frankfurt
I came to, became more attentive, even alert. As if an internally anchored reflection had suddenly spilled outward, I became absorbed in the page that happened to be open in front of me. It was Jan Van Eyck’s so-called “Madonna of Lucca,” the lovely one, in her red coat, who offers her delicate breast to the sitting and seriously suckling infant.
Where to? Where to?
And suddenly I wished, wished, o wished with all the ardor my heart had ever been capable of, wished to be, not one of the two small apples — in the painting —, not one of these painted apples on the painted window sill — even that seemed too much of a fate…No: to to become the soft, the small, the unseeming shadow of one of those apples — that was the wish into which the whole of my being gathered itself.